I’m moving. Again. April 21, 2007

Eh? Where to you might ask. Well well well, I guess I know now that I have a friend with a certain superpower. The power of convincing people. Ok, maybe she didn’t really convinced me. But when she asked me “why don’t you try Livejournal?” It got me thinking. Yes Suzi, why not? I told her I used to have one LJ account, which I no longer post in. I dunno, I find the features a bit too “cheem” somehow. And then I saw the layout she have for her LJ, and it got me thinking (what suzi? Again?) Maybe…just maybe… she can do a Jensen layout for moi? So I casually asked, “So…if i do open an LJ account.. would you, you know.. like, you know.. do a Jensen layout for me?”

All she had to say was “YES”, but instead she replied with a triumphant “Sure! I can do that for you dood!” And then it was set.

In the words of Elliott Yamin, I’m movin’ onnnnn………

(WordPress has been awesome. So damn easy to use. It would have been my permanent home if not for their no-customise-your-own-layout policy. So, yah. No hard feelings eh?)

Let’s go then. ->  It won’t kill ya, but It’ll hurt like a bitch!

Sick..so sick. April 18, 2007

Am on leave tomorrow to go follow Ina for her doctor’s appointment. Although Yana is also available, I thought, oh what the heck. I need a break from the BITCH and plus, I bet we all won’t be able to take any leave come May/June..prob even July. So yeah, I’m taking it now while I still can.

And guess what? Yana just reminded me there’ll be football this morning @ 3am. Perfect! At least I get to watch without worrying that I will be dozing off at work. Right? Right! lol.

Got into a mini tiff with him yesterday. Ok ok, I admit, it was MY fault. For once (haha), it was my fault. So…. I called him during lunch and tried to make him laugh a little. Not sure if I succeeded…but hmmm…. can lah. Good enuf for today. Will try harder tomorrow.  :p

Was discussing the whole shooting incident that occured in the US a few days ago. Seriously, the whole thing is so fucked up. The police’s response was S-L-O-W and they’re so absurdly stupid I don’t even know where to begin. 32 (was it?) students died – and that’s a huge number. Even the famous Columbine shooting didn’t suffered this many casualties. The worst part of it all is that these kids lost their lives at a hand of a lovesick maniac guy whom obviously is SO sick he blew his face out! I seriously can’t fathom everything that happened and it makes you wonder just how sick a person can get. Like, seriously. Love doesn’t just hurt, it apparently kills.

My heart goes out to the families of those whose lives are tragically taken away. I pray they find peace in their hearts.

….

I have a lot more to say, but some things I just can’t put it into words no matter how hard I try.

Betrayal is a sucky thing isn’t it? But its double the punch when it comes from your own friend. Sigh. I have no words.

I’ll sign off with this link for you guys who’s bored out of your wits. You don’t have to be a fan to find this funny. (Test results have shown) Its freakin’ awesome man. I lol’ed so hard. Freakin’ genius!

Oh like, cmon now! April 17, 2007

After close to an hr and a half of trying to make a nice Jensen header, I realized during uploading that I could not manipulate the CSS codes. Like, wtf?! There isn’t even any “update” button, or “Save” button for that matter. Nice. *rolls eyes*

I just realized I have nothing nice yet simple to wear for my cousin’s wedding come Sunday. I have a few kebayas yes, but none that I would like to wear, esp not from Jurong to Simei. But then again, I have no decent baju kurung to wear that is suitable for a wedding, especially one that involves your close family. Since most of my baju kurungs are like chosen by Mom – they are all err.. can I say.. fugly? haha. I’m basically..very much…. screwed.

Speaking of screwed..I am very much screwed in the financial department this month. So many birthdays in April – I’m going crazy!! Thank God for Hana who reminded me that Jas’s birthday was last Thursday – It totally slipped my mind manz! I feel so guilty! Hana bought her a brooch which cost over $50 bucks *pengz* and which I have yet to pay her. (not my fault, she have not sms-ed me her acct number) I just paid for the Harry Potter book online yesterday. Total damage = $52 plus. Went to the dentist for my monthly appointment last night. Another damage of $100. (by the way, my rubberbands are navy blue again this month cos they run out of pink and turquoise – again!) Irritating.

Sigh.

The BITCH is coming in this Thursday, which is a last minute thing. Don’t ask me why she’s coming this week, but my guess is she wants to spend as much time as possible with Peter while he’s still around. Hah. That SLUT!!! Fancy trying to steal my office husband away from me from under my nose! The audacity!!! *heh*. I think I should really apply for that leave on Thursday and go accompany Ina for her appt just so I will have to see her face a day lesser compared to the rest.

I’m so tired. I need a break from the PC.

Just to share, this was the header I did.. unfinished…and never will… (haha,so drama queen) Jensen is fucking hot. WhooooOooo~

Loco April 15, 2007

Its been a crazy week.

Our Friday turned out to be quite an interesting night. Dinner @ Amirah’s was great. We had so much laughs I was quite certain I would go home having a six pack.

It was a fun night. Truly enjoyable. I wish we can have more of those. But…

Saturday night, birthday party @ my sis’s place. This time, celebrating Insyirah’s 3rd as well as Mom’s 51st (tomorrow). That girl simply lovesss her strolly so much, she refuse to let it out of her sight! We even had one round of card game before heading home. Played Old Maid – very old skool indeed. And did I mentioned the adults were the one who ended up playing with the toys that I bought for the birthday girl? lol.

On a different note – reality is slowly but surely, sinking in now. I try to brush it aside every time it decides to pop in my head.. some days its easier.. some days its tough. sigh.

I think I will pre-order the final chapter of JK Rowling’s Harry Potter series – The deathly hollows. It starts tomorrow. Never crossed my mind that I would be one of those people who would pre-order a HP book, but yah, ever since I started reading them, I love it! hah. Do I think Harry Potter will die? Hmmm, I would not say that I don’t care whether he will or he will not, but well.. even he does.. its not very surprising. But I’m hoping Ron won’t! I love Ron! He’s so goofy and…cute! Keke.

Its almost midnight. I’m better off taking my beauty sleep. Or lack there of. Toodles.

 

Check out all the pictures at multiply!

this is how a heart breaks April 12, 2007

It has come to my attention a piece of devastating news today.

I am sad. Very sad.

Worried too. Fucking worried.

But at the same time I am happy for him. I am.. really.. but I need time to get over the fact he’s leaving.. all too fast, too furious.

Tomorrow will be awkward. But we’ll try to make the best of it.

This is life. I guess it is time.

walk on..walk on…. April 12, 2007

 

I am so high right now. And I’m trying my darndest to act and look busy cos the beatch is in.

Woke up this morning for the CL 2nd leg match. We are through! Yes! Next up are the boys in blue (not again!). I know we kicked their asses the last time, so I’m crossing my fingers that we can do that again on the 24th. Its on home soil, so we need to pray hard that they won’t score any yo.

IF, (and its a big IF) we do make it to the finals this yr and have to face the other guys in Red, I told Yana I will officially go into hiding. (until of cos, if we do nick it. heh) Their current form is smokin hot right now, and it looks like its gonna be THEIR year this year, so I’m really NOT looking forward to having to square it off with them. Urgh. Cross my heart and hope to die.

But til then, I’ll bask in the glory of our well deserved victory.

ta – daaa ! April 9, 2007

my masterpiece. errr, kinda.

My third and second last visit to the dr today. Went OK. I am back to looking like a lobster. “hooray!”

Mano just showed me her vacation pics. Awhsome! I bet they had loads of fun! I told her she made me so envious just looking at those pics. How many years has it been since my family last had an outing like that? See, I don’t even use the word vacation, because I know that sounds like its never gonna happen anytime soon.

Makes me wanna force them all to go for the free chalet that Mom got. It would be fun wouldn’t it? But first I will have to convince my parents to go, and then the second hurdle would be my 1st sis and HER family. Now that sounds like mission impossible knowing my sister. Anyhoo, I would so love a family vacation. Yana once quote, “Dood, our parents are like, so like, caught up in their own careers man..they have no time for us!” LOL @ “careers”.

Muse April 6, 2007

@0113hrs

“Hysteria”

It’s bugging me, grating me
And twisting me around
Yeah I’m endlessly caving in
And turning inside out

’cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I’m breaking out
I’m breaking out
Last chance to lose control

It’s holding me, morphing me
And forcing me to strive
To be endlessly cold within
And dreaming I’m alive

’cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I’m not breaking down
I’m breaking out
Last chance to lose control

And I want you now
I want you now
I’ll feel my heart implode
And I’m breaking out
Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode

*** heart this song ***

Change is an inevitable thing. People change. For whatever reason we may never know.

I woke up today feeling sucky. My head felt like it was about to burst, my throat was sore, my voice was croaky and my entire body ached.

I popped the panadols and waited for it to subside.

Felt good enuf to be going out and meeting him.

It was a good day. We had pizza.. discussion over marriage.. (he told me Ju is getting married on 1st July and that why should we conform and rush into marriage like the others?)..he made me laugh ALOT today.. (Lesung lalat kape Pa? lololol) He finally got the 300 game on his PSP and was taking it out to show me.. when I saw my face plastered on the screen replacing his wallpaper. In my heart, I was like “awwwww dood, seriously!!” but of cos I didn’t show it and instead went for “Eh cantik nya budak tu..” (read : Wah, that person very pretty ah..”) He just gave me a chuckle. Ok, maybe to readers out there this is nothing. So what? He got my freaking picture on his PSP, big deal. To me though, I treasure every little gesture cos it shows he’s still into me. (Not many ppl are into me u see) And MY picture?? I’m not even a looker. For him to switch it on every morning on the train ride to work and seeing my face… hah.. (I feel guilty now that I changed my phone theme to Spiderman 3 instead of his picture) ………..

I’m torn. Should I take the flu med again tonight? I will totally zonked myself out if I do. And tomorrow is go to pasar day with Mom. Maybe not eh. Maybe I should get myself sick til Tuesday (its aftnn shift day) and take an MC so I can skip it. Heh.

I’m gonna make a scrapbook out of this picture for Syirah’s birthday. We look beat up, but who cares. She looks so darn cute – never fail to make me smile when I look at it. Heh.

Off to bed now. Toodles~

I’m losing my focus and I just can’t help it April 5, 2007

I forgot to write all about my new favorite male singer.

3rd place American Idol “winner”, Elliot Yamin.

I always thought he should have won. And would win.

I love this guy for his awesome vocals, and I think he’s a real nice guy too. Hah.

And did I mentioned he performed A Song For You?

One of the songs my fav female singer sang.

And I like his version ALOT.

A song for you – Elliot Yamin

A song for you – Christina

I think I found my man’s version of Christina.

www.myspace.com/elliottyamin

I think I’m gonna fall sick very soon.

Funny thing happened in the office today. We opened the durian roll package Mano bought for us. The entire office started to smell of durian. It was THAT strong. Everyone was curiously searching for the culprit and some were covering their noses.

We were chased out of the office and we ended up eating our durian rolls at the staircase outside.

Here’s my proof:

It is clearly a very unflattering picture of us 3, but wat the heck.

I would post another picture with Mark in it, but I’m afraid its a little censored. So yah.

Have a GOOD FRIDAY ya’ll.

I’m in your grave, salting and burning your bones April 3, 2007

fucking tired.

fucking headache keeps coming back to plague me.

my entire body’s fucking aching.

excuse my language.

on a good note, we hit 105% last month which means four hundred buckeroos worth of extra kerchings coming our way. *smirks*

on a different note, yana gave me spoilers for the season 2 supernatural’s finale ep. since I know of no one who keep up with supernatural the way I do, there is no harm writing abt it in here. Sam dying in Dean’s arms. I wonder how they intend to bring Sam back. My take is, he’ll “die” in his arms, pay a visit to Daddy in hell heaven who tells him it ain’t time yet for him to go, or maybe its Dean’s turn to make a deal with the devil and bring Sammy back (tho’ that would be very cliche) or.. or.. endless possibilities. But I bet it’ll be a great finale for sure.

I shall sign off my entry for today with these:

Suzi : Sam will die in Dean’s arms

Mano : Which one is Sam again?

Suzi : The taller one

Mano : Rite. Oh well, as long as the hot one lives.

Suzi : (In true Dean style) What a bitchhhh !!!

Mano : Dude, I saw that episode where Dean almost died…

Suzi : Yah..and?

Mano : That guy looks hawt even when he’s near death!

lol lol lol. I can’t agree with u more dude.

And just because I feel like it…

From the episode, “In my time of dying” feat hot guy in white tee aka Jensen Ackles

@3.36pm An update.

I missed out on all the fun this morning. Woke up at 3:45am to catch the CL match with PSV. What we didn’t know was that the match started at 2:45 instead. An hour past and 3 goals went by… and we missed it all.  Shucks.

Not complaining about the win tho’. Heheh.

I have this feeling I am only a friend to you when you need a shoulder to cry on.

Am I?

Another friend told me I don’t need quantity in friends, just quality.

I didn’t tell her that I think I’m lacking in both. Oh well. .  .

I’m itching to start scrapbooking again. Its been awhile.

The office is too quiet today. No King, and only 2/3 of Spartans left. I am stucked with reports that’s making my eyes watery just staring at them.

We have durian rolls from Angie’s courtesy of sweetheart Mano but which I can only eat tomorrow. Gotta wait for the King to come back u noe.

That’s abt all the rants I’ve got.. for now.